狄更斯双语小说:《董贝父子》第27章Part 16

'You might have been well married,' said her mother, 'twenty times at least, Edith, if you had given encouragement enough.'
'No! Who takes me, refuse that I am, and as I well deserve to be,' she answered, raising her head, and trembling in her energy of shame and stormy pride, 'shall take me, as this man does, with no art of mine put forth to lure him. He sees me at the auction, and he thinks it well to buy me. Let him! When he came to view me - perhaps to bid - he required to see the roll of my accomplishments. I gave it to him. When he would have me show one of them, to justify his purchase to his men, I require of him to say which he demands, and I exhibit it. I will do no more. He makes the purchase of his own will, and with his own sense of its worth, and the power of his money; and I hope it may never disappoint him. I have not vaunted and pressed the bargain; neither have you, so far as I have been able to prevent you.
'You talk strangely to-night, Edith, to your own Mother.'
'It seems so to me; stranger to me than you,' said Edith. 'But my education was completed long ago. I am too old now, and have fallen too low, by degrees, to take a new course, and to stop yours, and to help myself. The germ of all that purifies a woman's breast, and makes it true and good, has never stirred in mine, and I have nothing else to sustain me when I despise myself.' There had been a touching sadness in her voice, but it was gone, when she went on to say, with a curled lip, 'So, as we are genteel and poor, I am content that we should be made rich by these means; all I say is, I have kept the only purpose I have had the strength to form - I had almost said the power, with you at my side, Mother - and have not tempted this man on.'
'This man! You speak,' said her mother, 'as if you hated him.'
'And you thought I loved him, did you not?' she answered, stopping on her way across the room, and looking round. 'Shall I tell you,' she continued, with her eyes fixed on her mother, 'who already knows us thoroughly, and reads us right, and before whom I have even less of self-respect or confidence than before my own inward self; being so much degraded by his knowledge of me?'
'This is an attack, I suppose,' returned her mother coldly, 'on poor, unfortunate what's-his-name - Mr Carker! Your want of self-respect and confidence, my dear, in reference to that person (who is very agreeable, it strikes me), is not likely to have much effect on your establishment. Why do you look at me so hard? Are you ill?'
Edith suddenly let fall her face, as if it had been stung, and while she pressed her hands upon it, a terrible tremble crept over her whole frame. It was quickly gone; and with her usual step, she passed out of the room.
The maid who should have been a skeleton, then reappeared, and giving one arm to her mistress, who appeared to have taken off her manner with her charms, and to have put on paralysis with her flannel gown, collected the ashes of Cleopatra, and carried them away in the other, ready for tomorrow's revivification.

“如果你能稍稍给人一点鼓励的话，”她的母亲说道，“那么你到现在至少已很好地结过二十次婚了。”
“不！我是块废料，我也只配当块废料；但谁想要我这块废料，”她抬起头，回答道，一边由于极大的羞耻与肆意的高傲而颤抖着，“那就让他像这个人一样把我要走；我不耍弄任何诡计去引诱他；他看到我被交付拍卖，并觉得买下我不坏。让他买去吧！当他前来观察我——也许是出价——的时候，他要求看看我所掌握的技能的清册。我给了他。他想要表演一件给他看看，以便向他手下的人显示买得合算，我就问他想要看哪一件，然后我就奉命展示。我不再做别的。他是出于自愿购买的，他知道它的价钱和他的金钱的力量；我希望他永远别对它失望。我没有自吹自擂，也没有逼着他非成交不可；由于我尽量阻止你，你也没有这样做。”
“今天晚上你真奇怪，伊迪丝，跟你自己的母亲这样讲话。”
“我似乎也觉得奇怪，比你还觉得奇怪，”伊迪丝说道，“但是我的教育很久以前就受完了。我现在年纪太大了，而且已经逐步堕落得太下贱了，我已不能再选择新的课程，废除你的，来挽救我自己。一切能纯洁一个女人的心胸，使它变得真诚和善良的幼芽，从来没有在我心中萌生过。当我轻视我自己的时候，我没有任何别的东西来支撑我。”在她的声音中包含着一种动人的悲哀；但当她撇着嘴，继续说下去的时候，它消失了，“因此，由于我们出身高贵而境况贫穷，我安心于通过这些途径来发财致富。我所要说的只是，我坚持那唯一的宗旨，这是我还有能力提出的——妈妈，有你在我身边，我几乎要说，这也是我还有力量提出的唯一的宗旨。我没有引诱过这个男人。”
“这个男人！”她的母亲说道，“看你说话的口气，仿佛你恨他似的。”
“难道你以为我爱他是不是？”她穿过房间中途，停下脚步，回过头来看着，回答道，“是不是要我告诉你，”她的眼睛注视着她的母亲，说道，“谁早已彻底了解我们和看透我们了？在他面前我比在我自己面前更缺乏自尊心和自信心，——因为他对我的了解，使我感到多么自卑自贱！”
“我想，”她的母亲冷冷地说道，“你是在抨击那可怜的、不幸的、他叫什么名字——卡克先生！你想到那个人（我觉得他很讨人喜欢）时缺乏自尊心和自信心，我亲爱的，这不见得对你的家庭会有多大影响。你为什么要这样严厉地看着我？你病了吗？”
伊迪丝突然低下了脸，仿佛感觉到剧烈痛苦似的；当她用手紧紧捂住它的时候，一阵可怕的哆嗦波及她的全身。它很快就过去了；然后她以往常的步伐走出了房间。
这时那位应当说是骷髅的侍女又来了，她向女主人伸出一只手；女主人似乎不仅失去了动人的容颜，而且也失去了美好的姿态；她穿上了法兰绒长外衣，全身无力；侍女收拾了克利奥佩特拉的遗骸，用另一只手拿走了，准备明天早晨再让她复活。